Spin101: Life at Random

Before the year comes to an end, I would like to thank all of the people behind the happiness and fulfillment that 2010 has brought me. These people are the reason for all my smiles and laughter and the ones who make the year 2011 worth waiting for. My Dear Ma’am Beth, You just do not know how you have touched my life. Moments spent with you are never boring and dull. You seem to have the energy of a 13 year old, the vivacity of a 16 year old, and the firmness and decisiveness of a 30 year old. I really envy your carefree attitude. With you, I learned to face each day with a smile, to fight when needed, to see the positive in all the bad situations, and to get up gracefully after every fall. Thank you Mama Beth. Sa 2011 na pod… Sisterette Leop, Go for it! Wa’g mo ng pakawalan. Ahahahaha… Thank you for the friendship, the laughter, the okray moments, the bond, and everything in between. You have been a great friend and a loving sister. Stay there, ok? I love you! Ex-Cousin Jhet, Ahaha...

Ahead is unknown... it is an enigma that will only be unveiled through time and reason. Ahead lie the answers, the truth, the key to the mystery. And I continued to walk... with persistence... seeking for the unknown . I went on. I know not what I was seeking. I lied. It was never unknown. Forward, I moved... “Fight for it!” “Back off, idiot!” Two opposing forces Tried to steal the sanity left on me. I told the world I backed off. I lied. Went on... a faster stride. I fought. I endured. I closed my eyes. Everybody understands. I lied. I hear people talk behind. I fought. I endured. I reaped the glory. I fought. I’m glad I did. The prize I got Is precious than jewels; Enough to complete life, More than worth the fight. Time brought us back... Never allowed the world to act; Parted... But together we should be; And together we will be ‘Til forever becomes a history. Getting my hands dirty on poems again...!

God has been so good to me. I don't know why, but it scares me at times. I know I haven't been the most wonderful person in the world. I don't go to church, and I can't even remember the last time I was able to hear mass. I do things even if I know that it is against His teachings, and I know He is aware that there are times when I even doubt His existence. But despite all that, God continues to shower me with so much blessings. When I graduated from high school, everything was uncertain, but He showed me the way. The day right after graduation, I was given the greatest opportunity in my life. Then, I knew, all my dreams will never be put to waste. Holy Child Hospital was then my 'knight in shining armor'. By being able to work there, I got the chance to continue with my schooling. It was a tough and challenging experience, but I never gave up. I continued counting God's blessings... When the time came that I thought I will no longer be able to survive worki...

Goodness... I am so alone tonight... Should his antidote mount a stumbling soup? Well, who knows?

"So, how's your teaching?" She said this with a beaming smile on her face ( close man kuno mi... hehe ). I almost answered, "Well, I just had my students evaluate me before going here, and like, 60% of them said that I speak too fast, 20% said that I should refrain from speaking in English because they have trouble understanding the language, 10% said that I need to be strict, 5% insisted that they like me because I'm not strict, I teach well, and I speak well; while the remaining 5% said that they like the way I look and the way I walk. Oh, by the way, how come you did not interview me? I heard you gave the other new instructors a hard time." However,I decided to just stay safe and answered with a very coy: "It's okay ma'am... I'm getting by." And she said, "Great! So, what do we have today?" I submitted her the transcriptions and stayed for a little chit-chat with her. Whew! It's been two months now since I started livin...

Current feeling: sad Current state of mind: Blank So, how will I start? It seems that I have a lot of explaining to do. So, from where do I begin? Okay... Classes have finally ceased. Yep, ceased permanently for me and 2800 others more. I have this mixed feelings about this. First, I am happy, very happy indeed; because finally, I will be able to say "bye, bye" to college life. But then, it dawned on me that not only will I say goodbye to school, I also need to kiss Pylon goodbye. This is what scares me. I am scared of going out to the real world (as they call it) and leaving my Pylon siblings. Am I ready? Nope, definitely not. So, where does that leave me? - to a world of question marks and exclamation points. Honestly, I still haven't imagined life away from our little, colorful office. Yes, I had been aware that this moment will really come - when I have to make decisions for myself, when I have to become used to becoming away from people I love, when working isn't...