Monday, December 8, 2008

Iloilo Escapade

Whew! Kaila mog hang over?

It was like I just survived from a tornado blast that lasted for a week! I was not able to really enjoy the week-long Founders Day. How could I when my mind is full of nothing else but the materials for the yearbook? How could I possibly enjoy the different activities that were arrayed for this grand event when I have a bunch of things to do, people to communicate with, and a whole lot more? And how could I possibly feel the excitement when I'm all disappointed and upset by some people with crazy ideas and decisions? Geez... That was indeed one hell of a week!

Anywayz, on the brighter side, we were finally able to submit the final materials for the printing of the yearbook. Yipppeee!!! We submitted everything right after the end of the Founders Day as we still need pictures from the Hugyawan Festival, the last activity.

Our four-day stay in Iloilo was indeed a blast. Though most of our time there was spent proofreading, checking and editing, we still had fun. We were brought to Iloilo's finest restaurants every night and we got to tour around the city. Thanks to Makinaugalingon Press' hospitality (*wink).

We thought that trip will end up also with a lot of fun. Unfortunately, when we were on our way home, we experienced the scariest ride in our lives ever. The weather wasn't really good that time that the ferry boat that we were riding on was struggling through the giant waves along the way. It was like a ferris wheel ride. Luckily, we were able to arrive in Bacolod safe and sound. We talked about that experience then, and we found ourselves laughing over the things that we did while we were still in the middle of the angry sea. Then I thought, what if that was really our end there? I still got a lot of unfinished business here on earth, you know. Then, I wouldn't be able to see the fruit of our labor- the printed yearbook; I wouldn't be able to give my staff my last instructions (*wink); I wouldn't be able to distribute my pasalubongs; and our names and pictures will then be in the yearbook with this bold letters on top: IN MEMORY OF... waaaahhh!!! Crazy thoughts, eh? I shivered by the very sound of it.

Thank goodness we are still alive and kicking. My only prayer that time is for the Lord to guide the boat safely to the port. And He did. God is really good to me, despite everything.

Anywayz, here are some of the pics during that very unforgettable experience we had in Iloilo:

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Irony of Life

Someone: It just feels so awful knowing that the very person whom you consider to be the closest person in your life suddenly turns you down. The very person whom you consider to be the most important just look at you 'lowly'.

Me: Huh? Hmmn... does it have something to do with _ _ _?

Someone: Do you know the feeling when people ridicule you, and no one stands by you? No one defends you?

Me: Duh... That just goes to show... and why would you care anyway? Don't you know that more people appreciate and admire you than those who scoff at you?

Someone: (pouting) But I don't care about those people. What I only care about is how that person sees me and gives me even a little importance.

Me: (shaken, but struggled to keep calm) So, you mean... Ai... just never mind...

Do you know how bad it feels when that someone tells you, right in front of your face, that you are USELESS??? When that person yells at you, in front of your friends? It really hurts, you know... (tears started to roll down his cheeks again)

Me: Useless. Root word? Use. Don't you get it? haaaiii... never mind...

(another 20 minutes of silence)

Someone: Well, she is right, anyway. Just look at me. I just look so craggy and ....

Me: Ah ok... So it's insecurity. You're just like that. You've always been like that. And we whole-heartedly accepted you for being like that. If that somebody can't accept you, then....

Someone: To whom will I do everything for? I think I'm losing my focus now.

Me: For yourself at least. You can't let anybody love you if you can't even learn to love yourself. Well, it's your choice,anyway. Misery is your choice. Everything is your choice. If you choose to stay like that, then you will really stay like that. There are so many things you need to do. Just don't look at only one side. There are so many people who look up on you.

This is an excerpt from a conversation I had. Whew! So it's really like that, huh? I just feel bad knowing that he doesn't really care for us, the people who are always behind him and whose arms are always open wide for him. Well, again, it's his choice. Still, we chose to stay by him.

Well, this is life - so ironic. But, I just can't understand why some people keep on trying to fit themselves on the very little space their so-called "important person" gives them. When in fact, they have so many real friends whom they can truly trust, who can understand them more than any other people can, who are always willing to lend a hand, and most of all, accept them as they are.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Love Hurts Day

I really haven't thought that this moment will just come all of a sudden and catch us off guard. Can you believe it? The freakiest, craziest, and the most outrageous people that ever set foot on the surface of the earth, can also get veeerrryyy emotional. No, really..., kidding aside, I was like perturbed upon realizing that an "emotional outbreak" (*wink) is actually happening inside our office. The guys here who have been acting like a toughie have just shown their soft side and the girls have become "cry babies". Is this epidemic airborne or something, or does it have to do with the weather?

Hmmn..., when did all of these start? Who initiated this lunacy? Is it because of this "walking enigma" who cut her hair to lessen her burden, or this "nomad wandering through Nowhereland" who suddenly realized that he has to give up his greatest vice. Well, actually, we can also put the blame on this certain "virus" which some of the Pylonites have greatly enjoyed but eventually just flew away from their grasps, leaving them flabbergasted and dumbfounded. (Sigh) Hmmn... What is this virus called again? LOVE??? Yep, I think that is how it's called.

Anywayz..., even though this spate have affected us both mentally and emotionally, still it has done something good to us. The communication lines unexpectedly opened wider, making loose some of the most "sacred" stuffs we have been keeping after all this time. And we then realized that even through our lowest point, we have each other to hold and lean on.

To memorialize this earth-shattering event in the lives of the Pylonites, we are hereby declaring this day as the heartrending "Love Hurts Day"...


Saturday, November 1, 2008

One Spooky Halloween

5... 4... 3... 2... 1... Happy Halloween!!!

WE welcomed the Halloween with some sorts of absurdities tonight. Well, what else can you expect from a bunch of Pylonites who are spending the holidays in the office?

We took a break from our yearbook tasks and decided to have a countdown for the Halloween in the open courts of our campus, also hoping to catch some spooky events around. We took crazy pictures of everyone and had so much fun. We then found out that we have additional company. It's not only us who had fun taking pictures... Geez..., isn't that spooky?


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Buglasan Fever

Every year, the province of Negros Oriental holds the majestic Buglasan Festival. I didn't get the chance to fully enjoy the festivities, but, geeez, I'd slap myself if I wouldn't be able to at least see the booths, the street parade, and the grand fireworks display. Luckily, the other Pylonites shared the same sentiments with me (wink). So, we didn't miss the chance to take pictures of this annual event. I am sharing here some of our pics:

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I saw this tag in divinediu's blog. Though she did not really tag me at all, I just felt like tagging myself with this... lol...

I am : outlandish (really...)

I think : of stuffs that shouldn't be thought of...

I know : that things change and nothing is really permanent (even people)

I want : a quiet and peaceful weekend alone...

I have : done the same mistake over and over again (I hate to admit this, but I still do it)

I wish : I'm stronger...

I hate : the people who also hate me

I miss : my old self

I fear : being not good enough...

I hear : my favorite song right now...("♪♪Do you ♫ have to, ♫do you have to ♪, do you have to let it linger ♪♫♫")

I smell : the heavenly aroma of morning coffee...

I crave : for pizza and ice cream... (slurp)

I search : for true happiness and answers to my questions... (well, who doesn't?)

I wonder : if I could right all my wrongs...

I regret : a lot of things. The mistakes I made and the things that I haven't had the courage to do...

I love : many people, though I can't even love myself yet...

I ache : when people don't give a damn to people who care... (ashishishi)

I was not : like this before... My life wasn't this messy... until...

I am not : my real self... I wear a lot of masks everyday...

I cry : when I'm angry and so down...

I believe : that everything is possible... The impossible just takes longer...

I dance : when I feel like dancing...

I sing : the songs that mean something to me and when I want somebody to hear what the song means...

I read : courtroom novels... Just can't resist them...

I don't always : lie... But when I do, I'm damn good at it...

I fight : to survive... (wink) when I have to protect myself and the people I love...

I write : to pour out my emotions and sentiments...

I win : when I see you bleeding (ngeks... hehe)

I lose : when I cry in front of my enemy...

I never : ♪♪really loved you anyway...♫♫ (yeah)

I always : hurt myself... Duh... (wake me up, will yah?)

I confuse : places and directions (yeah, very often...)

I listen : only to those who are worth lending my ears...

I can usually be found : in the office or in my bedroom... (I go nowhere else...)

I am scared : of a lot of things that might happen, of secrets that will be revealed, and a whole lot more...

I need : real people, real friendship, real love...

I am happy : when it feels right and things are perfect...

I wake up: each day as a different person...

I sleep: thinking of my stupid mistakes and thinking of what mask might be fitting for the next day...

Thanks Divinediu... Now, I'm tagging everybody on my blogroll...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

16 Ways to Manage Your Anger

Life is full of frustrating moments — here are some helpful tips from:

Anger Style:
What It Looks Like: “If you leave your jacket on the floor one more time, I’m leaving you!” It may take a lot to push you over the edge, but when you get there, the earth shakes and people run for cover. It may take a lot to push you over the edge, but when you get there, the earth shakes and people run for cover.

Why You Might Do It: If you were never taught how to deal with irritation, you may habitually swallow it until you can swallow no more. Eventually your top will blow. Some people are anger junkies, who get off on the adrenaline rush of an emotional explosion, not to mention the fact that the onslaught can mean they get their way — at least in the short term.

The Damage:
It is virtually impossible to feel empathy and anger simultaneously, so in the heat of the moment, you are more likely to say and do overly harsh things that you later regret.

How to Turn It Around
# Wait it out. “Research has shown that the neurological anger response lasts less than two seconds,” says Ronald Potter-Efron, Ph.D., an anger-management specialist in Eau Claire, Wisconsin, and a coauthor of Letting Go of Anger (New Harbinger, $16, Beyond that, it takes a commitment to stay angry. Mentally recite the Pledge of Allegiance or count to 10 and see if the urge to explode has diminished.

# Own your emotions. A simple rephrasing of your feelings can help you feel more in control. “I’m really upset by your behavior” is much more effective and empowering than %#*&@!

Anger Style:
What It Looks Like: “It’s OK that you’re late. I had time to read the menu — 40 times.” You find a roundabout way of getting your digs in, with a half smile.

Why You Might Do It
: You were probably raised to believe that expressing negative emotions directly isn’t OK, so you take a more indirect route. If folks get mad, it’s their fault, not yours. After all, you were just kidding. Can’t people take a joke?

The Damage
: Even though couched in wit, your cutting comments can damage your relationships. Although some people insist that mockery is a form of intellectual humor, the very word sarcasm is related to the Greek word sarkazein, meaning “to tear flesh like dogs.” Ouch.

How to Turn It Around
# Give it to them straight. “Sarcasm is passive-aggressive communication,” explains counselor Carlos R. Todd. Find words to express how you feel head-on. You might explain to a tardy friend, say, after you’re seated, “I wish you would try to be on time, especially when you know we have limited time.”

# Be firm and clear. This is especially true with children, to whom a gentle “Jumping on the furniture is not acceptable” sends a much clearer message than the snarky “Don’t worry — we just happen to have $2,000 set aside for a new sofa.”

# Speak up before you get bitter. Exercising assertiveness prior to arriving at your personal breaking point can help prevent a sarcastic streak from popping out.

Anger Style
: Avoidance
What It Looks Like: “I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything’s fine.” Even when there’s a fireball of rage burning in your gut, you paste on a happy face and dodge any display of irritation. This isn’t passive aggression; it’s buried aggression.

Why You Might Do It
: “Women in particular are told over and over again to be nice no matter what. Get angry and you could lose your reputation, marriage, friends, or job,” says anger-management specialist Ronald Potter-Efron, Ph.D.. If you grew up in a volatile or abusive home, you may not believe anger can be controlled or expressed calmly.

The Damage: The primary function of anger is to signal that something is amiss and encourage resolution. By ignoring that warning sign, you may end up engaging in self-destructive behaviors (overeating, excessive shopping). You’re also basically giving the green light to other people’s bad behavior or denying them the opportunity to make amends. How can they apologize if they don’t know you’ve been hurt?

How to Turn It Around
# Challenge your core beliefs. Ask yourself, “Is it really fine for my employees to leave early whenever they want? For my partner to go golfing every weekend?” If you’re honest, the resounding answer to these questions is probably “You know what? It’s not fine.” Recognizing that something is wrong is the first step in setting it right.

# Step outside yourself. Imagine that a friend is the one being abused, overworked, or neglected. What would be the appropriate way for her to respond? Make a list of actions she might take, then ask yourself why it is OK for her, but not you, to react that way.

# Embrace healthy confrontation. Someone ticked you off? Tell the person — in a positive, constructive way. Yes, he or she might be surprised, possibly even (gasp!) angered, by your words. And you know what? He or she will get over it. “Avoidance often does more damage to families and friendships than any expression of anger,” says Potter-Efron.

Anger Style:
What It Looks Like: “Oops. Did I delete all those old baseball games from the TiVo?” You don’t hide or swallow your anger, but you express it in an underhanded way.

Why You Might Do It
: You dislike confrontation, but you’re no pushover, either. “People become ‘anger sneaks’ when they believe they can’t stand up to others,” says anger-management specialist Ronald Potter-Efron, Ph.D.. Some people who are cautious by nature turn to this style when they feel pushed outside their comfort zones.

The Damage
: You frustrate people. Todd puts it another way: “You’re living your life around making sure other people don’t get what they want, instead of striving for what would make you happy.” The bottom line: No one wins.

How to Turn It Around
# Give yourself permission to get angry. Tell yourself that anger is your psyche’s way of saying you’re tired of being pushed around. A mantra: Assertiveness is fine; aggression (passive or otherwise) is not.

# Advocate for yourself. Instead of “forgetting” to turn in your report at work or showing up late to meetings, gather your courage and tell your boss that your workload has gotten too heavy or that you’re having an issue with a coworker. It won’t be easy, but neither is looking for another job.

# Take control. If you turn to passive aggression when you’re uncomfortable with what’s expected of you, it’s important to do something to take the reins of your situation. Unable to manage the house or the finances solo? Rather than doing a haphazard job of it (subconsciously, of course), tell your partner how important it is that he contributes.

Anger Style: Self-Abuse

What It Looks Like: “It’s my fault he cheated on me. I’m a terrible wife.” You find a way to make everything your fault, every single time.

Why You Might Do It: Somewhere along the line, your self-esteem took a beating and you decided that sometimes it’s just safer and easier to be mad at yourself than at someone else.

The Damage: Constantly turning angry feelings inward can set you up for continued disappointments and even depression.

How to Turn It Around

# Question yourself. Every time you feel the urge to assume blame, start by asking yourself, “Who told me I was responsible for this?” Then ask, “Do I really believe that?” Instead of accepting all responsibility, thank yourself for recognizing the pattern in the first place.

# Work on your self-worth. Make a list of your positive qualities. Developing a genuine sense of worthiness is a critical step in overcoming self-blame. Seek out a professional if you need more help in working around this issue.

Anger Style
: Habitual Irritation
What It Looks Like: “I am sick and tired of you borrowing my stapler! Get your own!” This is often less a reaction to events and more a default option. It’s always on unless you consciously turn it off.

Why You Might Do It
: If your discontent dwells directly below the surface and is constantly seeping through, there’s probably resentment, regret, or frustration boiling beneath. Maybe your coworker got the promotion and you didn’t. Or your marriage is falling apart and you’re not sure why.

The Damage
: If you’re always ready to blow, friends, family, and coworkers may take great pains to avoid upsetting you. Or they may avoid you altogether. The most likely result? No progress — you stay stuck in the same vicious cycle.

How to Turn It Around

# Get to the heart of it. What are you really mad about? If you dig deep, you’ll realize it probably isn’t about a stapler — or dirty socks on the floor, or an empty milk carton in the refrigerator, or any of the other small things that make you so frustrated. Consider professional intervention if you can’t get to the bottom of it on your own.

# Tune in to anger clues. Become aware of the actions and feelings associated with your irritation. When you’re enraged, do you ball your hands into fists? Pace around the room? Grumble, swear, or grit your teeth? As you identify and experience each physiological response, make a mindful effort to do something — anything — else.

# Visualize peace. Try this technique to stop rising anger before it overtakes you. Imagine your breath as a wave, a surge of color, or even a breeze. Watch it come in and out; optimally each breath will be deep and quiet. Hear yourself speaking calmly and softly to yourself and to others. Your anger reflex should diminish another degree each time you do this imaging.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008


“Anger is only a natural reaction; one of the mind's ways of reacting to things that it perceives to be wrong. While anger can sometimes lead people to do shocking things,it can also be an instinct to show people that something isn't right.”

I know I've been harsh on that last post I made. I know it affected some people and caused them pain. I know my limitations, and as far as I know, I haven't exceeded (if you may call it that) them. I know how others would react to it, and that is what I wanted. I know it would affect them, but through it they'll know that I'm serious and I want to get down to business now.

I've been keeping it all inside. And when I made that post, it's as if all the bitterness and rage that I've been keeping inside found a leak and took advantage. Maybe I haven't thought it much. If you only saw me when I made that post, maybe you'll understand. If the words I used caused you so much pain and humiliation, I'm sorry, but you know what anger can cause. At least now, we're even. Again, Im sorry. I don't get angry often, but when it reaches the edge already, I become a different person.

I'm not being self-righteous or something. As far as I know, I did everything and I haven't failed in any of our agreements (remind me if I have; I just can't remember). You can't blame me for acting like this. Right now, I just want you to bear with me. It's really not easy for me, considering that I'm dealing with everything here. And this is one of those problems that I should deal alone. It's quite ironic how I give you a hard time just to protect you from shame that would then be caused when the right persons (I hope you know who I mean by this) know it.

Nobody else knows how I feel right now, nobody else can understand this. And you know very well that I can't say stuffs directly to you, so forgive me if I do it this way. This may look like very immature, but you know that this is just my only outlet of pouring out my emotions. You understand me, don't you?

Whoa! So much for that! I know, this will just be settled sooner or later. I now believe in what they say that when something bad happens, there is always a good thing that comes next. And so here comes the good thing! Our new buddies are finally here. We're quite awestruck, you know (*wink).

see the difference?

Monday, October 13, 2008

On friendship and duties... (To whom it may concern)

I am fuming and seething right now! I really want to wreck the necks (sorry for the phrase) of some people!!!

I don't know until how long will I be able to bear the headaches that they have been causing me. It's just so enraging knowing that they are just laughing and talking ill stuffs about me while I am already on the point where I wanna throw stuffs here! The nerve! I don't know how they still get so nervy as to not standing on their words. Is it because they just treat me as somebody whom they can easily fool? Is it because they just consider me as the frail and flimsy person whom they can easily dupe?

I've been through enough of them already. Now, I know that you can never trust the same people forever. Oftentimes, they let you trust them for some selfish, shrewdly calculated, cerebral reason. Now, I learned to put a gap between friendship and duties. There should always be that huge barricade between the two, especially when it concerns stuffs that could affect so many people and could even ruin a reputation.

They just don't know how I sacrificed a lot of things for this. I now feel so frustrated. Just can't help it. Things did not go on as I expected and as I wanted. And worst, the very people that I expected to stand by me throughout seems to turn their backs on me. The people who convinced me to accept this very big responsibility and promised me that they will just be there whenever I need help, now seems to be the people who caused me this much misery.

I've been very understanding, kind and considerate to them ever since. I can see no reason at all for them to fail and betray me like this. I gave them every favor that I could give yet they seem so ungrateful. I don't wanna sound so bitter here, but they made me like this.

I know that some of them no longer have that "fire" for the organization because they now have a much better one. They sometimes make us as a scapegoat or something. Some of them, takes advantage while some plays safe when in front of me.

I am really angry right now. No matter how many "sorry's" they say can never ease what I'm feeling. I just can't say things right in front of their faces and I just hate myself for being like this. I am always concerned about how others will feel. I just wish I could shout insanities in their faces. I just wish I could show them how angry I am without crying in front of them like I do now.

I don't know how long will I be able to take this. I just wish for more courage to do the things that I need to do and continue what I've started. And as for them? Well, they're old enough to know stuffs. And I know they are not that insensitive to not feel what I wanted them to feel. I hope they'll realize that we are still important to them (for profitable reasons, of course). That no matter how "low" I may be to them, I still have the power to decide on things that might be important to them soon.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Coping up...

It's becoming super busy lately... We are already on the "full-blast mode" (as we call it). This is the time when we have to spend sleepless nights in the office to make the dummy of the yearbook and lay-out the pages.

I haven't gone home yet and it's already lunch time. My days now start at 8 am and ends at 3 am. I just go home to take a bath and change (our house now serves as a bathroom to

Whoa! There are so many things to do yet so little time to do all of them. Aside from taking charge in the dummy-making, I also have to supervise and help in the lay-outing. Plus, I got to do the dealings for the yearbook ads, provide meals for the "frogs" (the pipz here), edit the articles, follow-up some other stuffs, and a whole lot more... (h-e-l-p!!!)

My mom now complains that I no longer go home. I haven't seen my ate and my dad for like how many weeks already because when I go home (to take a bath and all) they are out for work... (sigh) How I miss them!

Anyway, we got some new stuffs 'round here in the office (*wink). Our new PC's, camera lens and flash just arrived (yipee!!) I'll blog about it next time, and maybe I can share some pics with them. Whoa! A little leap again. Thanks to our Big Dad... Now, we have new "powerful" buddies...

T..T for now!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Pylon IPR '08

whew! finally, we were able to find time to relax and unwind. We just had a two-day IPR and it was super fun! Here are some of the pics we took during that activity.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Got to deal with a lot of Sanguines!!!

We just had our first-ever Pylon IPR last weekend. It was so F-U-N!!! Though it was exhausting,still all our efforts are paid off. One of the activities we had there was knowing our personality profile through taking a test. The test revealed that I am a Perfect Melancholic type. Here is the result of the test:

Your personality is Melancholy Phlegmatic.
Melancholy Strength:9 Weakness:14
Phlegmatic Strength:7 Weakness:4
Sanguine Strength:4 Weakness:1
Choleric Strength:0 Weakness:1

Actually, it's really not a question. All the descriptions there of a melancholic individual pertains to me. Geez..., and I got to deal with a lot of Popular Sanguines (Oh goodness gracious... help!!!)! According to the profile, melancholics are always contrary to sanguines. Here are the characteristics of both personality types:

(The Introvert/The Thinker/The Pessimist)


The Melancholy's Emotions

* Deep and thoughtfully
* Analytical
* Serious and purposeful
* Genius prone
* Talented and creative
* Artistic or musical
* Philosophical and poetic
* appreciative of beauty
* Sensitive to others
* Self-sacrificing
* Conscientious
* Idealistic

The Melancholy At Work

* Schedule oriented
* Perfectionist, high standards
* Detail conscious
* Persistent and thorough
* Orderly and organized
* Neat and tidy
* Economical
* Sees the problems
* Finds creative solutions
* Needs to finish what he starts
* Likes charts, graphs, figures, lists

The Melancholy As a Friend

* Makes friends cautiously
* Content to stay in background
* Avoids causing attention
* Faithful and devoted
* Will listen to complaints
* Can solve other's problems
* Deep concern for other people
* Moved to tears with compassion
* Seeks ideal mate


The Melancholy's Emotions

* Remembers the negatives
* Moody and depressed
* Enjoys being hurt
* Has false humility
* Off in another world
* Low self-image
* Has selective hearing
* Self-centered
* Too introspective
* Guilt feelings
* Persecution complex
* Tends to hypochondria

The Melancholy At Work

* Not people oriented
* depressed over imperfections
* Chooses difficult work
* Hesitant to start projects
* Spends to much time planning
* Prefers analysis to work
* Self-deprecating
* Hard to please
* Standards often to high
* Deep need for approval

The Melancholy As a Friend

* Lives through others
* Insecure socially
* Withdrawn and remote
* critical of others
* Holds back affections
* Dislikes those in opposition
* Suspicious of people
* Antagonistic and vengeful
* Unforgiving
* Full of contradictions
* Skeptical of compliments

The Extrovert/The Talker/The Optimist


The Sanguine's Emotions

* Appealing personality
* Talkative, Storyteller
* Life of the Party
* Good sense of humor
* Memory for color
* Physically holds on to listener
* Emotional and demonstrative
* Enthusiastic and expressive
* Cheerful and bubbling over
* Curious
* Good on stage
* Wide-eyed and innocent
* Lives in the present
* Changeable disposition
* Sincere at heart
* Always a child

The Sanguine At Work

* Volunteers for Jobs
* thinks up new activities
* Looks great on the Surface
* Creative and colorful
* Has energy and enthusiasm
* Starts in a flashy way
* Inspires others to join
* charms others to work

The Sanguine As a Friend

* Makes friends easily
* Loves People
* Thrives on compliments
* Seems exciting
* envied by others
* Doesn't hold grudges
* apologizes quickly
* Prevents dull moments
* Likes spontaneous activities


The Sanguine's Emotions

* Compulsive talker
* Exaggerates and elaborates
* Dwells on trivia
* Can't remember names
* Scares others off
* Too happy for some
* Has restless energy
* Egotistical
* Blusters and complains
* Naive, gets taken in
* Has loud voice and laugh
* Controlled by circumstances
* Gets angry easily
* Seems phony to some
* Never Grows Up

The Sanguine At Work

* Would rather talk
* forgets obligations
* Doesn't follow through
* Confidence fades fast
* Undisciplined
* Priorities out of order
* Decides by feelings
* Easily distracted
* Wastes time talking

The Sanguine As a Friend

* Hates to be alone
* Needs to be center stage
* Wants to be popular
* Looks for credit
* dominates conversations
* Interrupts and doesn't listen
* answers for others
* Fickle and forgetful
* Makes excuses
* Repeats stories

Comparing the two personality types, melancholics are really the total opposite of sanguines. We found out, however, that most of my members are sanguines. So, now, I'm expecting worse things to come... Oh, and by the way, I'm like the third one in this picture. I am the indecisive, confused person...

Saturday, September 27, 2008

So this is what it takes to be balance-brained, huh?

I took this brain test once, and eventually, it revealed that I am balance-brained. This is the complete result of the test:


That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation.

When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over.

While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

Whew, so that is why I am currently having problems coming up with the right decision, huh? So this is what it takes... (sigh) Maybe, because I am still afraid to step up to the plate when problems need solving. Whew! I wish I was better than how I am now... Then, everything would have been much, much not like this...

Saturday, September 20, 2008

A Rotten Dream

Last night I had this bad dream... It really weird me out. I can no longer remember what it was about, but, what I'm sure of is that, it's just off the wall. It's kind of weird when you can no longer remember anything about your dream, but still it makes you feel so uncomfortable. I woke up gasping in the middle of the night, and there were tears in my eyes. I just continued crying after then. I don't know, but I just felt the need to do it. It's freaking me out, but I cannot remember even a single part of it. Ugh! I so hate those rotten dreams. When I woke up, the dream just vanished but the rotten feeling still remains.

Anyway, guess what was the first song I heard this morning... It's James Carrington's "ACHE"!!! Ugh! Anyway, I'm still having that "last song syndrome" thingy that until now, I'm still singing it. Crap! It keeps on playing in my mind.

James Carrington Lyrics
Ache Lyrics

Oh well, I think it's becoming my favorite song... (*sigh) The singer sounds so sincere, that it seems so uncomfortably heartrending... Whew! Anyway, I think I have to call it a day. My eyes are no longer cooperating, and I gotta get home before it rains again. I just hope tonight won't be nightmarish again. xoxoxoxo

Friday, September 19, 2008

e-pylon got a new face!

Presenting the Pylon official website's whole new look!!!!

It's not yet totally done, but at least we can already see the improvement. Thanks to our great computer wizards (whee! the red carpet, please!). Good job, guyz. I wonder what those freaks (the ones who are always bugging us to update our site) will say now. Anyway, have a great weekend everyone! XOXO

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Bust that stress out!

It's such a tiring day! We started roaming around the city at 9 in the morning to distribute the letters for our yearbook ads. We have to travel under the scorching heat of the sun, stop at our potential advertiser's company, give them a nice smile, and try to sweet-talk them about advertising in the yearbook. Whoa! An exhausting day, indeed. I just hope even half of those companies we wrote a letter to will give us a positive response.

We decided to accept advertisements for the yearbook this year to, at least, generate income for additional equipment and for trainings and seminars of the staff. Also, we want to provide relevant information to the graduates which could help them in their search for jobs later on.

Anyway, nobody has responded as of yet. I just hope they will soon.

Oh, and BTW..., I saw this article while I was looking for stuffs on the web, and I think this may come in handy for those who are living a very stressful lifestyle. Do you have heart attacks on your legs? Do you live with chest pains the way most of us live with split ends?(*wink) Here are some tips from Marie Claire:

* Clean up quickly: Give away stuff you don't use. According to the Wall Sreet Journal, the average executive pilfers six weeks a year searching for important documents buried in clutter. Combat stress by clearing your desktop of items that you don't use on a daily basis. Store everything else in drawers, on shelves, or in your supply closet. If you don't use something -- those kitschy bulletin board push pins a client sent for Christmas -- give it away to a coworker who might be able to find a use for it.

* Listen to music: Put those headphones on and tune into relaxing music. No, we're not talking elevator notes or sitar serenades. Try these hip anti-stress songs...

Bob Marley & the Wailers "Satisfy My Soul"
Curtis Mayfield "It's Alright"
Five Stairsteps "Ooh Child"
Scritti Politti "Perfect Way"
De La Soul "Me Myself & I"
Outkast "So Fresh, So Clean"
Zero 7 "In the Waiting Line"
Goldfrapp "Happiness"
Van Morrison "Days Like This"

* Retail Therapy: According to doctors at Emory University, shopping can give your brain's pleasure centers a rush of feel-good dopamine that drops off after you leave the store. The same principle can be applied to online shopping -- you're just a few clicks away from your favorite store. Add some items to your shopping bag when you're feeling under pressure then check out later in the day.

* Sort it out: Sort day-to-day papers into action files. Label them clearly: Bills to pay, receipts to enter, papers to photocopy, data for reports, items to discuss with your boss or papers to forward to another department. If the information isn't important enough to have its own label, it either belongs in another folder or in the trash.

* Think pink: Yes, you can think your way out of stress. Close your eyes and focus your thoughts on the color rose. Imagine yourself enveloped in a blanket of rose. Keep your mind on this color and breathe slowly. Don't worry if your mind strays; just keep bringing your thoughts back to the color rose. This will have an amazing, calming effect on you.

Geez, I like the last exercise. So, I guess, I'm gonna try these exercises myself so that I could bust this stress out. Whew!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008


I was browsing through my previous posts when I was able to read again my April 30 post. It's about that very big decision that I made in my life. I don't know why, but I was like, struck at this part of the post:

"Seems like I really have so much to miss. Nevertheless, I left for good. I know, I made the right decision. I may have learned a lot, but I know that I can never grow there. It's like I am confined only in the areas they assign to me. And that is not the life that I want. Now, I found the place where I know I will learn more and better things- things that I am really interested at. I know, it is still too early for me to say this, but I know, that I just made the best decision in my life, so far."

Did I really make the right decision when I decided to leave? I know I was very happy before being in the place that I choose. But, things really change. Maybe, I'm partly at fault because I know that I am not able to handle things perfectly. I don't have enough courage to decide on things. I even feel like a fool. It's not that I am always playing safe, I just want my colleagues to be part of whatever decisions will be made. Aside from that, there are a lot of them who have been here longer than I am and I just hate comparisons.

My greatest fear in life is being not good enough. Well, now I know that I am never good enough, that is why I sometimes feel awfully depressed. I can even feel the change in me, and worse, my family has felt it too. So many things keep on bugging me; so many realizations keep haunting me, and I know I'd be totally upset once those things will happen.

Waahh!!! Why is this post so negative? Ugh! Just can't help it!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

On certainties and frailties....

It has been quite a while since my last post. It's because of a helluva lot of stuffs that I need to accomplish. And, well, frankly, I ran out of things to rant. Not because my life became satisfying all of a sudden, but because I got confused of which one to seethe upon.

Anywayz, I am actually in the middle of making some yearbook stuffs when I felt this need to blog. Okey, so what's the title again? Oh yup... These past few weeks, it was like I was in the middle of a hurricane. Nothing, of all those things that I did, seemed right anymore. I was confused and my brain was like not functioning at all. I have done silly stuffs. Silly, did I say? Nope, it's more than that. It was ridiculous, inane, harebrained. Ok, I know they mean the same thing, but it's totally S-T-U-P-I-D!!!!!

I am certain of some things, yet I don't know why I am still frail on stuffs related to them. I mean, come on.... Hello? Will somebody thwack this insanity right off me? Yes, it was insanity. It is indeed. And I don't want that madness to take over and dominate my life again. Shall I give you an idea? Nah..., you wouldn't believe it. I still even try to convince myself that it was just one of those nightmares that used to haunt me when I was a kid. But, ugh! Stupid reality keeps pushing its way!

I knew it! I was certain of it! And now, I am trying to be definite about it. No more turning back, Janj. No more turning to the wrong path. This is one of those things that I really have to face no matter how shameful and appalling it may be. Then I guess, I just have to cope with it. I cannot turn back the time. If only I could, I will never hesitate to do so. I will never be shilly-shally to change my ways or correct my wrongdoings. I've had enough and that should be it. No more additions to it. I have been certain but I've also been frail and stupid to let skewed things be. I am now officially putting a period to it all. And this time, by all means, it's indubitable.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Insensitivity to the limit! (call it stupidity)

I was alone in the office when my friend gave me a link to this video. I find it funny yet so saddening. Well, the guy seems to be just so stupid, that his stupidity already made him very insensitive to what the girl is trying to make him feel... Duh... But I like the song anyway. The singer seems so sincere. Then I thought, over-sincerity can also lead to insensitivity... Insensitivity to the point of not seeing (or trying not to see) the flaws in a relationship. Well, this song is an exaggeration, but it still has a point.

Friday, August 1, 2008

This insanity ends here!

Dear Person Concerned,

I want to begin my days anew, with the thought of becoming the person I want myself to be. I want to experience something different in my life-- something that I think is right and could make everyone around me happy. I want to learn form the real world-- from the words I read, the sounds I hear, the things I see, and the touches I feel. I want to live again... this time, without the thoughts of you.

It has been quite while since I lived my life freely-- free from worries and fears, free from doubts and insecurities, free from you. Now, things already fell to their right places. All those questions I've been holding for so long are finally answered. Now I know where I really belong.

Life is a journey filled with many choices, and the challenges and choices that I have now, helped me find the dreams that I know are meant true for me. I know what my heart yearns, but I also know that it's better for me to follow what my mind dictates. Forgetting about how I feel may be such a great task, but I know anything can be accomplished if I just set my mind to it.

It was such a great experience. I've learned so much from it. Now, I'm stronger and I know I can handle things better. I just want to thank you for sharing with my vulnerabilities and making me feel loved, even for a short time. Thank you for all the realizations. It's so funny how both of us realized different things at the same time.

Now, it's over. I called it stupidity before, but I realized later on that it's a blessing from God. May you try to search for a new perspective, lean towards understanding, and find happiness that lasts. You deserve the best in life. You just have to be willing to work for it, no matter how long it takes.

And as for me, I'll go on with my life. We both know that I'm stronger than you are, so you don't have to worry. I'll be right here, in case you need somebody to talk to. Let's just continue with our dreams. The world is such a wonderful place, and we are so lucky to be part of it.

Friday, July 25, 2008

She did it!

After more than a month of the agonizing wait (wink*), the results finally got out. And, as expected (kidding), Ate passed the Philippine Nursing Board Exams (Yippeee!!!) Congratulations, Sis...! You are now an RN... Continue to inspire and influence lives. Hope to see you soon. Luv yah!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

A Detour

I am supposed to make my article for the yearbook, but it seems that I am disturbed with something that I made a poem instead (haha) I just can't write when something is bothering me... ugh! The poem really shows what that something is.

I can't think of a good title yet, but I'll share it to you anyway.

Don't mind me when I rant,
It's just myself that I am dissatisfied of.

Don't console me when I cry,
That will just make me hate myself more.

Don't be happy for me when I laugh,
What you see is not an expression of how I truly feel.

Don't be deceived when I act,
I do things without thinking it over first.

Don't answer me with lies when I ask,
I've had enough that it seems normal.

Don't look at me when I look at you,
I'm afraid you'll see what my eyes show.

Don't help me out when I'm confused,
That enigma may be the one you caused.

Don't pull me up when I'm down,
I just know where I really belong.

Don't worry about me when I'm hurt,
I always am... I am already numb.

Ouch! That hurts... (sigh) Can't help it to be "emo" at times. Whoa! I really have to make my article now. Oh geessshhh.... ! Somebody H-E-L-P!!!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Mr. Mabinay is the new Hari ng Negros!

I was not a fan, actually, of this "male pageant", until I found out just recently that the new Hari ng Negros is from my very own hometown, Mabinay. I was not able to watch the pageant but upon looking at the pictures taken during that "big night", I can say that the spectators that night did not regret that they were there. From the stunning judges to the marvelous production, awesome set to the hot and gorgeous contestants, what else could they ask for? Here are some of the pictures I got from the Hari Ng Negros site:

Whew! How's that? Want more pics? Just click HERE.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Free animated graphic comments, anyone?

Are you looking for the best site where you can find great animated graphic comments? Actually, I had been... and guess what, I finally found what I've been looking for! A friend recommended to me Flexy8. And it surely is the best shot. is a resource and collection of comments and graphics you could ever need for use on Friendster, Myspace, Facebook, Xanga, Hi5, Piczo, Multiply, Tagged, Typepad, iGoogle, Orkut, LiveJournal, Netvibes and other social network sites, blogs or any other place you want to add a little comment or graphic.

So, if you guys need free graphic comments, visit Flexy8 now!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I got accepted in PPP!

Whew... After so many times of applying and re-applying, my blog finally got accepted in PayPerPost. It is soooo awesome, really! Now, not only will I be able to write about the things that I love, I will also be earning out of it!

I started blogging about a year ago, and I can still remember those petty posts that I write before... (giggles..) Blogging has become an outlet for my crazy ideas and weird imaginations. It has also become my diary when I cannot have somebody to listen to my babbles and balderdashes. I blog to express my sentiments, to rant about things, and to have something where I can pour out my madness to. It worked, really.

Blogging for money has occurred to me when a friend introduced to me PayPerPost. Then I learned that blogging is never a waste of time. You get paid to blog about interesting stuffs through Pay Per Post. PPP provides bloggers with so many great opportunities, and, yup, they pay you for it. Amazing, isn't it?

Now that blogging has already become my hobby, earning will be very easy then. So, if you haven't signed up for PPP yet... Hey, what else are you waiting for? Money is just a few clicks away!

Monday, June 23, 2008

Office face-lifting

Jeesshh... That was like years! I was out the blogosphere for almost a month, but it was like forever! Oh well, now I'm back. Did anybody miss me? I, sure as heavens, miss everybody!

Actually, I've been also busy lately. Busy, I say? A whole lot, really. I even have not had enough sleep. I guess, I just really have to bear with it by now, because I'm expecting worse things to come.

Anywayz, we just gave our office a whole new skin! Yup, and that is, a really whole new look. I was really pleased with the result of our efforts, and I'm very thankful that I'm surrounded with the most creative and talented people in the whole wide world (wheew.. haha). Here are some pics taken during the face-lifting of the office.

It was chaos at first...

then, it started...

Argey did his thing...

then it became like this...

and this...

the result? taaddaaa...!

See? The once plain, cream-colored office, now evolved to a colorful, ingeniously-painted one. Some students have already seen our new office, and everytime they come in, I can always see the amazement in their faces. Our adviser is also very pleased. She even said that the university president should really see it. Weeew... so I guess, we've set another trend... haha...

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Show the world your looks, and be discovered!

Ever heard of an online beauty contest? Look of the Year is an online beauty contest for everybody who wants to join. If you think you've got the looks but don't have the guts to face a big crowd, here is your chance to get discovered and show your real beauty to the world. The winner will get 10,000 USD. But even if you will not win, it's still worth giving a try. Who knows, you might be discovered by international model agencies.

Look of the Year is looking for young, beautiful people who fall on the following categories:
Girls 14-19; Women 19+ ; Boys 14-19; Men 19+

Joining is so easy! Just register with at least one picture. Once it's approved, you just spread the URL of your Look of the Year picture/ profile around the internet and get votes to win. So, if you have the looks, show it to the world be discovered!