Sunday, March 21, 2010

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Current feeling: sad
Current state of mind: Blank

So, how will I start? It seems that I have a lot of explaining to do. So, from where do I begin? Okay...

Classes have finally ceased. Yep, ceased permanently for me and 2800 others more. I have this mixed feelings about this. First, I am happy, very happy indeed; because finally, I will be able to say "bye, bye" to college life. But then, it dawned on me that not only will I say goodbye to school, I also need to kiss Pylon goodbye. This is what scares me. I am scared of going out to the real world (as they call it) and leaving my Pylon siblings. Am I ready? Nope, definitely not. So, where does that leave me? - to a world of question marks and exclamation points.

Honestly, I still haven't imagined life away from our little, colorful office. Yes, I had been aware that this moment will really come - when I have to make decisions for myself, when I have to become used to becoming away from people I love, when working isn't about just as fun and exciting, when an 8-hour workday becomes a routine, when bondings and laags already become an occasion. (*sigh) I guess, I have to bear with everything now.


What consoles me is the fact that I will be already on my own. Actually, independence was something I've already known since my high school graduation. However, this would be something different. I would be preparing myself for something heavier, something that's already mine. It's me against the world now or me for the world.

Ugh! I guess, being alone for a couple of days turned me into another melodramatic freak. I just hope he comes back very soon. This thing scares me and there's no one I can share this to right now (sigh)...

4 comments:

tagskie said...

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jelly said...

..nyaaaah...kahilak pod ta aron janj.. bye2x pylon diay ha..yaw sa ay...hehe

jHeT said...

..huhuh.. ana jd janj..

..it's so hard to be leaving something that u've already been used to.. im soooo missing everything jd.. i still wana work with the yb and stuff.. i still wana b a "yagit" pylonite.. waaaaah..

..grabe.. we really have to face the real world na tlga.. *big sigh..

..kaya natin itetch.. ajah! *wink.. ehehehe.. c:

Media-Girl said...

well Pylon as well s not ready c u leave...mmmhh..bleeh!..be with us n be stuck with us one more time!..hahaha..