I really don't know how to start this because I know how much trouble and pain I caused you. You may think that I was able to take all these things so easily, but please believe me when I tell you that it took me all the strength left in me to say those words to you.
You were always there for me, and I thank you for that. I appreciate all the efforts you've exerted just to show me what I am to you and I thank you for the time you've spared for me.
You know all about THESE. You've always known.
I do not mean to cause you pain. I never wanted to hurt you.
At first I thought it would be so easy for me to love you, but I was wrong. I thought I would learn to let go of the past, but I was wrong. I thought I would learn to forget him and move on, but I was so wrong.
I never wanted to hurt you. But if hurting you means not being unfair to you and being honest to myself, I'd rather do it.
I am sorry. I really am.