Thursday, February 5, 2009

Ditto...

Just when I thought my busy days are through, that I suddenly found another set of tiresome works thwacked in front of me. Whoa! I think I’m losing my nerves! It’s like everything suddenly fell on the wrong place, and I’m caught up in the middle of it all. Puhleeezzz…! I’m so drained already!

My studies now is a blur. I don’t know if I can still pass my subjects. Because of my responsibilities in the office, I can no longer attend my classes. Instead of studying at night, I always find myself stucked in my yearbook tasks. I guess, all of these has something to do with the “keeping-up-the-achievements factor”, which, by the way frustrates me a lot. I’m so tired listening to the “sa una” stuffs. I’m so tired leading some people who now have a different priority. I’m so tired bickering with some people about things they "very well know". I don’t know if I can still make it next semester. Really… I guess, I just have to finish the semester and say goodbye to my studies next school year. Whoa! I’m so confused! I’ve been thinking of quitting from school already, because if I will still continue this, I’m afraid my transcript won’t look good anymore. I’m losing interest in my studies already and I no longer make good in my subjects. (*sigh)

Oh, and by the way, can you just please postpone that aggravating problems at home? I think I’m going nuts! My family problems seem to have sensed my agony in school and probably wanted my sullen attention. There seems to have so many glitches anywhere I go. Whatever happened to the “snakes are lucky this year” ??? Whatever happened to the “ten lucky months and two regular ones”??? Well, actually, I’m not really into astrology and horoscope stuffs, but I still can’t help but get frustrated.

As of yet, I’ve already decided on what to do in case my grades will disappoint me. I’ve already thought of a path to take in case things get worse. I know so many things will be affected by this decision, but I think I really need to do this. Hello? My future is at stake here! Maybe a little detour would help. But, one thing’s for sure, I will never do to my people the same thing that once disheartened me a lot... I will never leave them hanging on the brink.

3 comments:

I am Bong said...

Seryosong usapan…

Friend, please think twice before making any decision. I have no idea what you are going through right now and I am maybe not an authority to spare some advice, but I have been into this feeling before and it’s really hard when you are caught in situations like these. Just be wise in choosing which way to go because sometimes, great escape can be a great resolve in disguise. Ok ra na friend…

GBU:-)

Lance said...

motivate yourself to keep up with the level of multitasking that you need to do.. basically there is an end to everything.. but you should not give up while you're still in the middle...

just keep it up.. goodluck! =)

donfoxhunter said...

hu leave u hanging di????